What does nihilrave mean?

Hello there, 
welcome to my world. Before I tell you more about myself, you may be wondering what does Nihilrave mean? Well, as the fundamental question of philosophy revolves around existence, its been debated over and over whether life in itself has any meaning. What makes us different to other living breathing beings, beings that go through similar biological processes of birth, growth, death and everything in between. Some have argued that its our capacity to think and conjure abstraction, innovation and extraordinary act of selfishness from time to time (last point highly debatable given the history of mankind). However, for all arguments, the end question remains as the meaning of life in and of itself wasn't sure. Then why is it our minor chaotic superiority over other life forms matter.

Various philosophers have tried answering this using their own interpretation. According to Dostoevsky life is a struggle to escape from suffering only to fail and end up in a different type of suffering. Buddha says to make peace with suffering to achieve 'Nirvana' (as expected a very popular philosophy with overindulging vain westerners doing soul searching). Camus leans towards the same route and instructs one to be happy with suffering. For that is the meaning to exist. As to how, the point is driven home by Satre. Which is the concept of 'bad faith' or put simply, false self. You make believe and find meaning by deceiving yourself. Seems a bit too convenient right?

Ya, that's why in my opinion its better to settle for nothingness. Nothing makes sense. Nothing matters. But should that deter you from having to live and experience it all there is in your limited time in this blue sphere? Absolutely not. That's where the name nihilrave comes from. Nihil meaning nothing and rave means to party. As they say, live fast, die young, leave a sexy corpse (don't take the middle part as seriously ig lol). Anyway, thats a glimpse into my somewhat chaotic world.